Title: The Speed of Objects in Motion
Author: holyfant
Fandom: Sherlock
Characters: John/Sherlock, John/OFC, Dimmock, Hudson
Warning: NC-17, cheating,
Length: Medium
Status: Completed
Sherlock, John and a lifetime of falling together and apart.
At AO3
This fic crushed me. Really, it did. It's one of those fics where you think "Yeah, John's going to come around because he already is doubting himself' then he comes around. And you think everything is going great. But it doesn't. Because John is hurting Sherlock. And then you want them to break up - even as a Johnlock fan. It's just not fair to Sherlock. And John is too selfish. So selfless in some aspects but way too selfish in another. Sherlock can't let go because he has become dependent. Given in to this addiction and... John is hurting him again. Leaving. Leaving as if it was Sherlock to blame. When they get back together, I felt so weak. I couldn't trust John not to hurt Sherlock again. Even at the end, it was more like the clock ticking...
When John tells Sherlock that he was miserable without him, I felt like throwing a book at him. So selfish, so... damn tiring selfish. He describes Sherlock as "taking up everything" but isn't he doing the same to Sherlock in this story? This John has become the darkest I have ever seen. Even when I read dark!John stories, there wasn't something inherently wrong with them in this regard. They ignored morals, they hurt consciously. Their actions were always consciously. Here, they aren't. I believe this John is the most scary I've seen. Because you want to trust him but there is this waryness, this distrust. And every time you are ready to discard it, he disappoints. Messes up. And there's no real regret behind it. Otherwise he wouldn't again. He wouldn't, not in the same way. He is scary. And I feel so sorry for Sherlock to have fallen for him.
The time skips are used very well to illustrate how time passes. Loved that.
Same Author as:
The Fabric of Life
